Saturday, February 9, 2008

Promises are made for what?

Promises are made to be broken. It’s a very painful reality. And I can attest to that. Why it is people make promises that they can’t keep? I hate to say this, but I knew a lot of people who does not have that what we so called “Word of Honor”. Before, I used to make promises but I ended up done nothing of it. We often fight (me and bi) because of those broken promises. And it hurts us both. So, we’ve learned from our mistakes. We decided not to make statements which are doubtful. It would be much better if it come in surprise.

Then, why it is we need to promise? To hurt somebody or maybe to give false expectation to the person we gave our promises? Didn’t we realize it’s really painful to be fooled with those lies and be cheated? Those liars don’t mean to be with anyone else in the world (well, they can be with those people just like them). These people don’t deserve any happiness, and they are not entitled to have our attention. So, don’t ever waste your tears to these people. They also need to learn their lessons and it is only GOD can do that.

So, I suggest. Don’t make promises that you can’t keep.

Friday, February 8, 2008


I was fascinated in reading the blogs of my friends. i get to know even more those ppl whom i haven't had the time(lots of time) to talk to. They were merely my batch mates or one of my long lost classmates. It is undeniable to tell that blogs does a lot of favors to their users. Friends can communicate easily with it and through blogs, people can get to the bottom of a person's emotions and feelings. There were huge numbers of emotions i read on different blogs i visit. Sometimes DEEP THINKING is a requirement to catch up what really a certain blog means. Well, If only i can tell rather i can share those blogs of people that are worth reading. Some of the blogs that i visit most were of my batch mate's blogs. I am so excited of seeing people climbing (if not racing) to the top of their career and emphasizing their hard works in dealing with new environment and strangers.

It is my dream to go around the world, explore the beauty of the nature, to travel and to have fun. There might be places where it is impossible for me to come but through my friends' blog, i got to journey with them. There were experiences in life that is worth learning. Disappointments, hatred, anger, sorrow, confusion are some of the main issues i read here yet HAPPINESS, EXCITEMENT, SUCCESS, CONTENTMENT, JOY, and DETERMINATION are few of the good side of it. It's so nice to learn that people experienced bad things, struggled to solve it and learned from it. And i am glad, that i was part of it. Being INVOLVED is good especially if people excites, educates and learns from it.

It's A BLESSING from God that we are still alive. We still have millions of chances, opportunities and trials ahead of us. We should thank HIM for everything.

God Bless Us All... Have a good day friend!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

The basket of my dreams

How i spent the days of my life?

at last! the day that i have been waiting for has come. i really want to take some rest. i am so exhausted this semester and knowing that it will now come to an end is a good idea. i've been spending my time(12 hours a day) in my e-Lab. i've been wondering if i made my life to the fullest or have i gone to a dead-end of my career?

as i look back in my one(1) year of serving this institution, i could see that there were several changes in my life. Teaching and staff really made some differences. Though i miss teaching, it never came to my mind that i will apply for a teaching position in this institution after getting my regular status as IT Staff. Spending time in e-Learning department isn't bad anyway! i love it here. However, after one(1) year of being boxed with this room, i felt like i wasn't able to explore to world totally.

i am so AMBITIOUS!...which i really don't exactly like. i used to tell myself that it's better to keep on dreaming and be ambitious than spending my entire life with the same routine over and over again. i see it positively, if i'll stop hoping then i'm giving myself a "thin" line for a better future. but the sad thing there, i really can't remember now when was the last time i think about getting myself into one(1) level higher. I could see myself static. The world keeps on turning, but i couldn't even justify why i forgot to mae myself be someone that i want to be in the near future. Why i stop aiming?

Does it mean, i'll end up daydreaming? Nope, i won't let this happen. i am not frustrated(which ppl term me once :P) because i haven't even try it a little harder and never did i feel that way. i know i stepped 2 ladders already after i graduated.. but it wasn't enough for me to stop.i know someday i'll get to the top. Sooner or later, i know i'll be. i need to decide now... but where, on what, and how?

Monday, February 4, 2008

Love Sucks?

Now i realized, life wasn't perfect afterall. No matter how hard you try to make it the way you want it to be, life has it's own decision whether to follow it or to do their own way. God have so much plans to us and all of them were simply amazing. the problem with us is that, we wanted to have it right away. we really doesn't care or no matter what it takes just to make things look perfect. we tend to realize things ONLY after it has been done and things went unwell(disaster?). My life isn't perfect.. never been that 'GOOD' to what i aspired it to be.. my life maybe shaky now.. yes! i'm on the ROUGH ROAD now... and i want to escape it. there were times i tend to shout so loud, thinking none listening, just to make myself free but i just couldn't do. i'm still awake you know! people will see and people will know whatever hurts i'm keeping inside and i don't want people to know i was BADLY hurt. i would rather CRY at the corner.. TALK to God. trust me.. He listens. i always got comforts everytime i talked to Him and i am so thankful i have Him in me.

i can' t say my life was a total mess. my life isn't that bad anyway!.. sometimes, we really need to be hurt and cry... it's LIFE! but too much of it is unacceptable! everytime i'm on a fight... i forced my ear not to hear anything... i want everything MUTED! i closed my eyes and think i wasn't there and i was anywhere(away!!!)... i hate argue.. i hate interrogations... i want to be at PEACE.

There are so many things i want to do with my life and i'll do what it takes to fulfill my dreams. i may be sacrificing things and people(?)... if it's the only way to make my dreams come true.. then i'll DO it! God will always be there for me.. for whatever comes to me, it's His consent... it's His plan.. it's His gift.. and don't want to waste it. God will give me wisdom in everything i'll decide(?)..huh?!.. then why i messed my life?? and i can answer that.. God gave me more choices.. wider explaination.. huge advice but i tend not to follow it. i knew He was there everytime i made decision... He's there giving me advice.. but my ears were CLOSE to hear it... isn't it IRONIC? that after everything went bad, we blame Him...

There were too much struggles i kept in my my whole being... Only God knows everything... i want to cry(but i don't want to also)... my eyes were just so tired of it.. my body is too weak to produce tears.. and i really can not figure out the exact emotion to pour out.. coz everything is in confusion.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

What's in my Basket? My Crushes...

Come On! I know what you're thinking right now. Okey, i know i'm not a teener anymore and you might think it's inappropriate for me to have crushes. Funny! i guess it won't hurt you if i am. Well, let me clear some thing before i'll introduce to you 'these' personalities that struck my infatuation (lol). Anyway, i have a loving boyfriend. He's handsome, talented and funny. I love him so much! Hey, don't worry about my crushes coz he already know. Let me start now... can i?

Anyway, my first CRUSH is the ever-gorgeous Josh Hartnett. Hope you are not disappointed! hahaha.. for sure, you're thinking of someone you knew in your group or in my group. Sad to say, it's him! i've noticed him first in 'Pearl Harbor'. i was starstruck when i saw him on the film. Actually, it is the first time he catched my attention. i never liked him though.. the story of 'Pearl Harbor' made him melt my attention. After then, he caught me again in the movie '40 Days and 40 Nights'. He was hilarious. Let me tell you peepz, if you watched 'Wicker Park', you will fell for him!.. you'll going to have a crush on him(hehehe). My gosh! He's so cute in there.. and i really adored his role. He's one of a kind.

Enough of Josh. Now, let me share to you my second CRUSH and let me remind you, he is the cutest guy.. ever! He is Jesse McCartney. He's cute,right? i saw him in his new video 'Because You Live'. I was shocked how cute he was. Though, i've known him in 'She's No You' and 'Beautiful Soul' songs, never came to me he was that cute. Yet, he's just 18. too young for me.. this is all about CRUSH anyway! Crushes are normal. So better keep on crushing, hehehe.

My third CRUSH is Chad Michael Murray. I like him in the movie 'A cinderella Story' yet after... i find him unattractive in the movie 'House of Wax'. And what would i expect? it's a horror flick! =).. anyway, he's still cute.

Honestly, i wan't talk about all of my CRUSHES under the sun yet i will not allow myself to get you bored. There's Ben affleck out there, Chris Klein, and Ashton Kutcher. whew.. So, i'll end it here.

above all...
nobody can beat my love for my hubby-bee =)
adoration is normal,
but true love is really hard to find.
And i'm so glad i've already found him.
it's a blessing that i didn't wait too long for him.
i love you supahfafahlicious!

Saturday, February 2, 2008

How i handle pressure at work?

Yesterday wasn't quite well... i have a sort of argument with one of my colleagues here. i really don't have plan of arguing with him. it's a waste of time.. and anger(?). but things just went out to make things transparent for both of us! and it's all because of the 'uneven'(?) distribution of assignments. my boss tasked me to do whatever his back jobs(shall i say 'unfinished' job) because he'll be assigned to do other jobs. i did not accept it..(whyy?) the assignments were given a week ago(both of us were tasked to different assignment.. he had the funda and i had the stn and pathology)... and would due saturday(last week).. of course this week, we will be having another set of assignments(again).. and that's my point. we were working just the same.. but the issue there is that.. i will be working with his unfinished business... would i think of it's unfair?.. for me.. it's YES!.. he should have done it and finished it a week ago.. but the thing is... he didn't.. i am agree actually.... i am just expressing my side. i know.. i could be the one who'll be blame(again).. for being so 'reklamador'.... hahaha.. i never thought i would be like this up to now... being 'reklamador' is the status i earned from my college professors..they would comment *hey! you're my only student who would question everything about this and that.. but, you're the student which most of the time(if not always) got our expectation*... hahahha.. who could forget that phrase!.. it was stated to me by the best professor in school. was it amazing?... my attitude really is to question everything... i always wanted to have a clear explaination why should i be doing this... especially if unjustice(? tough term!) exists... however, i don't have plan actually of taking the task for granted.. just because it was thrown to me(unacceptable).. but, as much as possible... i made everything well... it's an accomplishment if i made my task perfectly well.

my day wasn't that bad afterall.. there was no anger(don't know exactly what term to use).. well, i just made the day fruitful... and i was able to finished 13 chapters yesterday! *bravo*

God is good... ALL THE TIME!

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